"You become so thin, not to be beautiful but to be nothing at all."
I never really realise how much I've changed until I see a picture of myself from before I had this disorder. I had some colour in my face and some meat on my bones, but I still don't want to go back there. I never thought this would take me over, since I'm the least superficial person I know. But I'm wondering how far I can take this. It doesn't seem to be stopping. It's been a year this month. It was always somewhere inside me, but now I'm really going downhill. This is real tough shit but I don't want it to stop.